Anxiety

For those of you who don't know, I suffer from anxiety attacks. With the wedding coming up in one week from tomorrow, those attacks have become more frequent lately. Depending on the severity of the attack I can have a few different reactions. A small attack will cause a stomach ache...something that I can cure by laying down and relaxing. A large attack will cause dry heaving, diarreah, and uncontrollable shakes. It will give me the feeling like I am going to pass out and they are really scary! I went to the doctor a couple weeks ago and he gave me some anti-anxiety medicine. The first and last time I took it, it made me feel weird all day and extremely tired. I took it and fell back asleep for 4 1/2 hours. I really don't like taking it and am trying to avoid it.

So it seems that the issues surrounding a wedding only get worse as you get closer to the date. We have not only already replaced one bridesmaid, two groomsmen, and a personal attendant, but now we are getting a new pastor....wtf? Our pastor that we are so comfortable with and have been seeing the past 8 months has informed us 2 weeks before the wedding that he can't marry us. He has something going on with his family..not an emergency..but something he needs to be there for. Our church just got a new pastor who has agreed to marry us, however we have never met him. One of my bridesmaids informed me last week that she needs to make up 4 inches to fit in her dress...Yikes! I am a little nervous about that one. I finally got a hold of our caterer and actually met her for the first time on Tuesday. That made me feel a lot better since it has been months and a long process to get a hold of her. My Matron of Honor is flying in Thursday, only to be rushed to the tailor to get her dress altered. I hope we don't have issues around that...?? I am pretty confident with that one since she has been very responsible with losing weight and I don't think I have to worry. I just hope that everything works out. We met with our cake lady last night and she is having issues getting the color right on the buttercream. After a trip to Sweet Celebrations and some quick brainstorming, we changed the whole look of the cake. It will be a lot easier to make and still look beautiful.

Work is more hectic than usual. Kim is leaving us Wed. next week and so our work starting to double yesterday since she isn't taking any more requests. This way she can work on getting rid of the 100 that she has. I am really going to miss her because now I am stuck with the "boys". At least she will still be working downtown so I can still see her for lunch and stuff. I am really happy for her that she got a permanent position. She deserves to be with a good company and have a stable position. I know how I felt when I was offered the FTE position.
Well, back to work as much to do!