Bad Dream

I am in a somewhat bad/weird mood. I think it started with the bad/weird dream I had last night. It was about Mikayla's bio-dad trying to take her from me. Adam was there and was really mad about the whole situation. I can't remember details but I remember the main point. I think it got me thinking about what happens to Mikayla if something happened to me. Would Adam get to keep her or would they try to give her to her bio-dad? After talking it over with one of my friend's at work I decided to make a will. I found out that you don't have to go to a lawyer to make a legal will. You can go to any stationary store, buy the "Will Kit", and get three people to sign with a notary present. That's alot cheaper than paying a lawyer to do it. Then I also started thinking about letting Adam adopt Mikayla. He really wants to and for some reason I am the hesitant one. He is the only "dad" she has known since her 1st birthday, so why not. He hasn't paid child support since 12-06 and hasn't seen her since her first birthday by his own choice. Maybe he would love getting out of having to pay child support anyway. I just fear that she will be turn to me later in life and be upset for not putting forth an effort to find him or contact him. I don't want her to feel abandoned by him or think that I was keeping her from him by any means. He just up and left and never told me he was moving or leaving the state or anything. He just didn't ever call again to see her. I feel so bad for her. Anyway it is Friday the 13th today too so you know kind of just a weird day all together.
TTYL.